To: [ncabral02@aol.com ncabral02@aol.com] From Natasha Cabral ncabral02@aol.com Cc: [cabral1088@gmail.com cabral1088@gmail.com] Date Sun, Aug 6, 2023 at 11:15 AM Taemin looked out his window and sighed, he loved seeing the earth from up above and looking down as the plane began to land and all the people, cars and buildings seemed to grow in size as the plane began to approach the ground. The land scape here was so different from his native Korea. Neither was better than the other, as his homeland was truly gorgeous and being an entertainer, he had seen it all, so he knew that the landscape that they now approached was something unique to this massive part of the world here. Instead of the lush green that he knew, bordered by unending seascapes, the land before him was red, the mountains and even the earth itself was dyed red.

He gathered his belongings he prepared for the long trip, mostly some earbuds, his phone, a notebook to write in and a book to read. and put it in his plain black backpack. he made sure that his ball cap was firmly in place and swept back his dyed hair. He pulled up his face mask and fixed his sunglasses, grateful, that it was so sunny here that it wouldn't look like a disguise. his clothing was loose as well and he looked as normal as he could, if he ran into a sasaeng here they would probably still recognize him, but there shouldn't be any here. American fans always seemed to give a much wider berth anyways, the most that they would do was take covert photos of him in public and share it on their social media, but he wasn't really worried about that.

The plane landed in the smaller airport and they disembarked, he was grateful that his english was good enough that he could read the signs and went to pick up his luggage and two babies as well. They were agitated, but perfectly fine. He tried to sooth them, to no avail and sighed, Their loud and angry meows made it quite clear that they were furious and would not be calm until they were out of their prison.

He picked up his rental car, a midnight blue mustang from about 15ish years ago. It wasn't too showy, and he loved it. People here drove so fast and he blended in as he followed his GPS to his new apt while he stayed here. It was a simple two bedroom and was only a short walk away from the Leasing Office, he gave him his key as he asked about his neighbors. he was the last unit on the ground floor and only had one neighbor.

"You won't have any issues with her, other than being a night owl and taking a bath or doing laundry stupidly late at night she is very quiet a bit odd as she very rarely leaves and has a lot of deliveries, but she is quite nice if she talks to you. your above neighbors have kids so you can often hear one of the units yelling at her kids, but there is no danger. We are pretty safe and quiet here, which is what your realtor said is exactly what you needed."

He was a bit curious as that was odd back home too, but he figured that his neighbor must also like her privacy which he of all people could respect. His apartment was simply furnished, as he requested and he settled in. He freed his son and daughter from their prisons and let them roam and get comfortable in their new home. He unpacked his bags and settled in, one of this things that this palace came with was a small fenced in yard, and he took a bottle of water and sat in a chair enjoying the breeze. It was early evening and he saw the sun just begin to set behind the mountains and seemingly set the sky on fire as dusk started to turn to twilight.

The realtor was right, it was quiet here. He wanted a place that was not rural, but large enough that he could just blend in and be part of a crowd again. He already loved it here and looked forwards to living his life in simple anonymity.

He had a rude wake up call that night as he realized two things one the walls were thin and two he heard his band's latest album playing as a woman hummed along, His quiet neighbor was a shawol? How? He should have been safe here. He could only hope that he wouldn't bump into her thanks to her seeming desire to live like a hermit.

His luck was apparently horrible as he saw her only two days later. They must keep a similar schedule as both decided to check their mail in the mid afternoon. It was only as he saw which box she opened that he even recognized her. She was not what he imagined. She was wearing a loose sundress and was clasping a cardigan closed like it was freezing outside. Since it was almost 44 C outside this was odd. He did figure out quickly that she wouldn't be a problem as even if she was a fan, she did not look at anyone. It was odd to say the least as it didn't seem like she was shy, if anything she reminded him of how he acted when he didn't want to be recognized.

She also had perfect posture like a dancer, but as she walked back to her unit he noticed that she walked very slowly, like she was injured or something. He wondered if that was why she didn't go out much, she hid it quite well, but he only ever saw people move like that when they were recovering from a serious injury. Despite this, she walked with a poise that he had only ever seen in other dancers. He knew that she must have some dance training and he couldnt help but wonder what she did.

After a week passed he figured out why he could hear her so well, their beds were a basically back to back and divided by a single wall. She must be winding down and resting in bed, when he heard her. He also found that she liked watching tv in all languages and liked anime as well. She woke early and must work from home as he heard her answering calls most of the day. He couldn't hear her words, but her tone was pleasant and he could just play some music if he didn't want to hear her. He found though that he enjoyed listening to her though, her voice was pleasant and soothing and he wondered if she ever worked for a radio station. He also heard her laugh often, some times a giggle and sometimes loud belly laughs that carried. She must live with someone though, because he often heard her berating someone, maybe she had a kid? He was awkward with children but liked them well enough.

It was funny, he never met the woman yet, but she already felt like a friend to him. He was curious about her and instead of being relieved by her avoidance, It only made him more curious, he began to make a game of it, to try and get her attention when they checked their mail at the same time. she still hadn't looked at him once but he got her to nod and smile hello now. It was pathetic, but it sounded like progress. Key hyung gave him a hard time about it after he got offended when key called her a hermit jokingly and he defended her by explaining that she did leave her apartment sometimes and that she was most likely recovering from something as she clearly had a hard time walking, he also explained that while a bit unique she was quite pretty once you got past her closed cardigan.

She always wore turquoise glasses and had her dark brown hair held up in a gold hair clip, though enough escaped for him to know that it was naturally wavy. Apparently, he was too enthusiastic in his defense as Key now decided that he was in love with her. he wasn't, she was just interesting. Minho just laughed and let him talk. They were all giving Onew some space as he took time off to heal, but he was doing well. He was spending time with his family and eating more. Hopefully he was able to gain some weight back and feel better. After what happened with his Jjong hyung, they were all taking it very seriously, when he suddenly lost alot of weight and said that he needed to take some time off to address his mental health. He talked to him when he called and texted him, but he was trying to give him time, they all were.

He missed his members and his own family but he needed a break as well. He only recently finished his military service, and it was hard, he hated being in the military as his androgynous appearance made his fellow soldiers stare constantly at him and they wouldn't give him any peace at all. He was glad when he left and was enjoying his time off here, listening to the life of one of their overseas fans.

He was out getting some coffee at a local cafe when he saw her out of her usual dress and cardigan. She looked so different that he didn't recognize it was her until she looked at him and he say her signature glasses and her white sandals. She was in tight jeans and a green top that was so tight it left nothing to the imagination and showed her shoulders and collar bone with artful cutouts. She also was wearing bold red lipstick with dark red eyeshadow blended to perfection. her hair was in a twist held up by a single pin and wanted to know what it looked like down. Nothing about her was hiding now and she was gorgeous. She seemed to be meeting a blind date, as she met someone and sent him a winning smile. She was not beautiful like an idol as she was not thin in the slightest, instead she had an innate sensuality about her that drew people in.

He sat in a booth near by as he wanted to hear her speak some more. he found out that she worked tech support and was highly intelligent. Also she was single and she had a cat. That must have been who she yelled at sometimes. He smirked as from what he could her, her cat was quite mischievous and frequently got into trouble. She also liked cooking and had a small instagram for her make up. She loved reading and wrote her own stories as well. She was very close with her family and spent alot of time wth them apparently. She also liked anything to do with fantasy and enjoyed subbed martial arts films as well and apparently hated horror movies as she was "a total wimp".

She also said "I have dealt with enough fear in my real life that I have no interest in an artificial version" What did that mean? He would have to ask Minho later. She was quite serious about it. He learned also that she had a very dry and self deprecating sense of humor, but was also very introspective. He was also right about the way that she walked, she didn't go into great detail, but mentioned that she lost most of mobility for couple years and as result she couldn't walk for very long. She told her date like she was apologizing, but he didn't think that she needed to apologize, if what she said was true then she was amazing, she was dealing with something like that and didn't act depressed at all. She was strong and trying to live her life. Her date wasn't cruel but he was uninterested as he kept talking about hiking in the mountains and going to the gym. Looked out the window, seemingly lost in thought, so he took the opportunity and acting like he was scrolling, snapped quick pic to share with his hyungs later. He knew he shouldn't, but he wasn't going to do anything with it. He mostly just wanted to rub it in that he was right about her to Key and that anyone with eyes would notice that she was pretty, that did not make him in love with her.

He looked at his photo, she looked like a model. She was a series of walking contradictions and he confessed it made him curious about her. He watched her hips sway gently as she walked to her car and she got in and drove away. He sat and leisurely finished his coffee. Then did the same and drove home.

He found out something more that night, she was in therapy. she must have been sitting in bed because, he heard her clearly. She must have put her phone on speaker as he heard her as well. Once he figured out what she was doing, he played his music and put in his earbuds. He may be curious, but he didn't want to violate her privacy. He knew what that felt like and he would never do that to another person.

He called his hyungs three way and told them about running into her earlier. "Key, guess who I ran into today?" "Let me guess? Was it your hermit and at the mailbox? Again?" Key sighed like this was very annoying to listen to

For once he didn't correct him, it would make it so much better when he forced him to eat his words later. "Half right, it was her, but it was not at the mailboxes for once, she was on a date and Holy Shit hyung, I was right about her, she is gorgeous."

Key didn't miss a beat. "Yes, spoken like any man in love, they say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and this is proof of that clearly"

Taemin was smug, "I brought proof, I happened to take a photo of her so you can see for yourself, I am sending it to you both now so now when I mention her you know what she looks like."

It was silent as the opened it "Damn, Taem, for once you are right, she could be a model if she lost some weight. She certainly does not look like any hermit I have seen" Taemin was offended "she doesn't need to loose any weight, she is fine the way she is"

"I didn't mean it as an insult, just that with her hair, eyes, and build, she could literally model if she lost weight. I meant it as a compliment if anything. She also has a flair for fashion as well, her clothes fit her well and her make up and accessories match as well."

That was high praise indeed "oh that reminds me" He mentioned what he over heard her say about fear "and then I heard the beginning of her therapy appt, and they mentioned that she is working through something called PTSD. Do either of you know what that is?"

They got very quiet before Minho spoke "It is a trauma condition that means that something must have happened to her in her past, something very bad. and as a result she can have flashbacks and probably relive it. Taemin, you need to be very careful with her, She clearly is trying to heal her mental health and we all know how hard that is. Plus, the way you describe her, and after the picture that you sent, doesn't she remind you of someone? Her soothing voice, avoidance of all attention at home, but being almost flashy in public, coupled with her very different personalities, being very introspective, and now learning that she trying heal her mental health issues? Don't you see it? She probably reminds you a bit of Jonghyun hyung."

Holy shit, he was right, there were similarities between them. It was probably why he was drawn to her, part of her felt almost familiar to him. This realization didn't change anything though, if anything now he wanted to get to know her more. It wasn't like he was trying to replace his hyung, that would insult them both, it was just if she was similar to Jonghyun a little, he wanted to get to know her more and maybe help if he could. He was also just interested in her as a person and it made him very curious. He resolved to find a way to be her friend as soon as he could.

The universe was in his favor as the next day he had a legitimate reason to knock on her door, as he had a delivery that never came. He left his hair loose and went without his usual mask and sunglasses, but he did wear his black ball cap so he didn't stand out too much, and dressed in a simple t shirt and sweatpants he knocked on her door nervously, she took a bit to answer and blocked the doorway. She was wearing her usual loose dress, but was missing the tightly closed cardigan for once and for the first time he saw her eyes. They were a deep amber that stood out without make up and would have been highly praised back home.

He tried to act like his maknae persona (it was actually authentic when he was comfortable with someone) as he didn't want to scare her. "I am sorry, I just moved in next door, but when I ordered delivery just now, they said that it was delivered, but I never got it. I am from another country so I just wanted to know if I messed it up somehow?"

She smiled reassuringly, "oh it happens to me too, it's nothing that you did i'm sure, for some reason google maps takes people to the wrong building number. I have to add a message to all my orders to make sure that they get it right."

He took out his phone "could you send me that message so I can copy it? I am afraid that my English is not that great, and I would appreciate the help." It was a genuine request so it wasn't hard to sound pathetic and appeal to her compassion.

She shrugged "Sure, what is your number?"

He gave it to her and she sent him the message with her note for drivers. He replied immediately, Hi, I am Taemin You can save my number under this name.

He looked up "Can I save your number? It would be nice to know my neighbor here." She shrugged again.

"Sure, my name is Sasha. What was yours again?"

He grinned widely, "Hi, I am Lee Taemin. It is very nice to meet you Sasha"

Now she looked at him and he could see that she recognized him "Y-you are Taemin? Really? What are you doing here? Why do you live next door to me.?"

"That might take a bit, Would you like to come to my place? I would rather not have this conversation outside your door if you don't mind?"

"O-oh, is that ok? I wouldn't dream of imposing on you. Those questions earlier was just word vomit, you don't owe me any thing, I'm sorry if I sounded demanding?"

He was confused "what do you mean by word vomit?" She laughed nervously, "It just means that I panicked and spoke fast without thinking first. You surprised me a bit is all."

He laughed as well "Sorry, I didn't mean to" He did a little. "I wasn't lying though, I really want to get to know you and it would be nice to be friend with my neighbor here." He again tried to look pathetic "please?"

She laughed "I thought that you hated aegyo. Ok, but just for a few min." Victory! She walked and sat nervously on his sofa, "Do you want some water? I am afraid I don't have tea yet."

"Oh I have some if you want. it is just green tea if that is ok? do you want me to go get it?"

He was surprised "If you don't mind that would be great. I haven't had a chance to go to the food store yet."

She nodded "No, problem, do you have a kettle?" "not yet" "No problem, I will bring mine"

She left in a hurry and brought back a tin of green tea in bags and a squat cast iron kettle.

She also had on her cardigan, but she at least left it open. She filled the kettle with water and set it on the stove to heat.

"do you have mugs?"

He walked over and pulled out a couple, both had cartoon cats on them. Then as if summoned his two cats emerged from his room and wound around her ankles, meowing softly.

"Well, hello there." she bent down to bet both, making sure to scratch behind their ears, and they melted, purring loudly. "They like you."

She smiled, "Most animals do for some reason. Little kids like me as well usually"

He could see why, she seemed very caring and gentle most anything would want to be near that.

She looked and saw steam coming from the kettle, so she poured water into each mug, and they went into the living room.

He made sure not to sit too close and deliberately left his door unlocked, so she could leave when she wanted. She looked awkward again and held her cardigan closed when he looked at her. He started to explain

"We are all taking a break after making our last album, You know about Onew right?"

She nodded "I hope that he is resting and feels better soon."

She was truly a fan "He is spending time with his family and they are taking good care of him. I talk to him sometimes and he sounds much better."

She looked relieved "Oh, good I am glad. I hope that he isn't rushed and is given the time he needs"

He nodded, "oh he definitely is, we are taking his health quite seriously and no one is pressuring him at all. It is actually why I am here, we are all taking time off as well and I wanted to find a place to blend in. This was recommended so I could practice my English and the realtor found this place for me as it is safe and pretty quiet here."

She nodded"that is why I live here too, I was staying with my aunt nearby and needed to get my own place and I loved it here. Me and my cat are quite satisfied. I work from home so I needed a bit more space as I would go stir crazy otherwise. And it is pretty close to most everything."

"What is there to do here?"

"Well I honestly don't get out much, but there are quite few restaurants and bars, and probably clubs, though you wouldn't catch me dead in one." She shuddered. "I like to just walk around some stores and browse and there is also a pretty cool used book store as well."

"What about you what do you like to do for fun?"

She laughed in that self deprecating way of hers "Me? I am a total homebody, I feel safest there, but I drive up to see my dad every few months and my extended family likes to meet every so often and eat alot of food and drink way too much alcohol. I sometimes like to just go walk around a store, just to see what they have."

"What about when you are at home? What do you do when you are not working?"

She laughed, obviously a bit more comfortable with that topic "I don't really have alot of energy, but I like cooking a bit, reading writing, and even just finding a show for the weekend and binging it."

"What do you like watching?"

"Oh a bit of everything really, I of course watch k-drama, but I also like shows from China, Japan and even Thailand as well. I also regularly binge Merlin and am obbsessed with Bridgerton and the Witcher."

She looked at him in thought "actually, you might really like The Witcher, it is a very dark fantasy that I think has some horror elements. It would be right up your alley I think"

He was surprised, didn't she say that she didn't like horror? "Do you like horror too? Also you must be a huge fan if you know that about me." He smirked feeling smug

"Oh no, I hate true horror, but I don't mind parts of it for the purposes of telling a good story. Also yes I am a fan, but not in the way that you probably thinking. I love your dancing and also your voice, Everyone in Shinee is honestly amazing but I think that your voice is very unique, and you have a sense of musicality that I think is unparallelled. I used to dance a long time ago, and while I have left that behind me, I still love to watch good dancers. I have never seen you guys live though as I hate crowds, and I have never even purchased an album as I don't have a CD player. I just mostly stream your album off my phone from your youtube site. I may really like you guys and your music, but I don't have a large budget and I won't waste my money on something impractical that even if nice, would serve me literally no purpose."

That was interesting, but he was glad that she prioritized herself above everything else. It made him feel a bit better about her,

He smirked enjoying this "So I am your favorite? Right?"

She turned bright red and it was adorable "Yes, but only for your talent. Obviously I know that you are attractive, but that really doesn't do much for me. I am much more interested in you as you are now. I only know what I do because I like watching your variety shows and interviews and ... well... I have a good memory I guess."

Wait... she is a fan, his fan, but not for his appearance? He was not arrogant and most of his fans did like him for his talent and skill as well, but no one dismissed his appearance as if it was an unrelated fact. She really was interesting. He wanted to mess with her a bit so he got a bit closer and tried to look her in her Amber eyes. They really were gorgeous.

"So you are not bothered at all by me looking at you now?" He teased

She covered her face and looked away, still bright red. "Yes, but not because of your appearance. I don't like any one looking at me really or, being to close to me. It makes me... uncomfortable. And I don't make eye contact with anyone, so breaking eyecontact doesn't mean I am interested. I am not capable of feeling any form of attraction beyond friendship unless I get to know a person first. You are truly beautiful, but for me it is like looking at art. I enjoy it, but that is all."

Well, that was new and refreshing, now he was curious again "so what is your favorite song of mine?"

"I loved watching you perform goodbye. It was a true piece of art and expression. I also really loved advice, because for the first time you seemed to be just yourself, not the maknae, not some piece of eyecandy, you didn't hide your tattoos and even though you showed alot of skin, it seemed more like performing art rather than designed to seduce anyone."

That was exactly what he envisioned, but even Minho said that he still looked sexy. Now he asked what he was interested in "you said that you danced, what did you do? and why did you stop?" She got uncomfortable "Wow. You like the hard questions don't you? I used to dance ballet and I was truly horrible at it. I had no natural skill at all and I had stop after I had surgery on my spine."

She took her cardigan off and turned around "See I still have a huge scar", she laughed "I look like the bride of frankenstein in a bikini"

Well now he was imagining her in a bikini and he didn't think that she would look bad at all. He put that image away for later. The scar must be why she wore the cardigan, but why did she close it so tightly.

"you know, you can take off your sweater if you want, your scar does not bother me."

"that is very sweet, but that is not why I wear it."

He couldn't resist, he was slowly trying to understand her and this was some thing that never made sense. "Then why do you? you have to be warm, i is quite hot outside."

To his confusion she turned red "Boy you know how to ask me the most uncomfortable things don't you? Just know that this is not an invitation or anything ok?" he nodded still confused

"I hate bras ok?"

That... was not an answer he expected

She gestured to herself. "I am not exactly small you know? When I am by myself, I never wear one. The damn things are a torture device I swear. I wear a cardigan to cover that fact as I am not wearing the damn thing just to check my mailbox."

He couldn't help it he laughed, Hard. "I am sorry, I just thought that Key would like you, he is quite blunt like you are. So does that mean?" He gestured vaguely

She turned even redder if possible "Well, it's not like you gave me much of an opportunity to change right?"

Now he turned red, He willed his eyes not to stray. Now that he knew why she wore the thing, he would have quite a HARD time seeing her in it. Now his mind couldn't help but wonder, did she wear anything underneath it? No... he had to stop that right there.

"I am sorry, I was just excited to meet you. I didn't know..."

She laughed, "It's fine, I do need to go back though, it was nice meeting you, she gently dislodged Kkoong who had curled up on her lap. She pet her head gently "It was very nice to meet you, Koongie" Daeng wound around her legs not wanting to be left out. "You too, Daengie"

"I actually enjoyed this despite the awkward end. It was very nice meeting you Taemin. You can call me if you need help with anything here ok?"

He nodded and let her make her escape.

When she finally left, he went to his bedroom and closed the door before lowering his pants and taking him self in hand, all it took was imagining him peeling that infernal cardigan off and seeing her in that dress, no longer able to hide and seeing the outline of her loose breasts straining against the dress and before he knew it. He spilled. It took less than 5 min.

He groaned, he was still not in love with her, Key be damned, but he could admit to himself that she was very attractive, and really, to find out that she was not wearing a bra? Well he was respectful, but he was only a man after all.

They had another 3 way call that night and with out fail, Key was already teasing him about her. "So how's you hermit? Still wearing that cardigan around?"

He groaned and key heard it, unfortunately "That was a different reaction, spill"

Ugh, he was like a dog with a bone "She apparently has a bad scar on her back from surgery, the cardigan covers it is all"

Key was not having it "Nuh-uh. That is not the sound you make about a covered scar, SPILL it!" he ordered

"Damn it, hyung! She doesn't wear a bra at home ok and I sort of ambushed her and all but dragged her to my place before she had time to change. I didn't know and I basically bullied her into telling me and embarrassed the crap out of her. Ok?" Key and Minho lost it. "So let me get this straight, You ambushed the poor woman at home, introduced yourself as Shinee's Taemin, dragged her to your place before, bullying her into admitting that she hadn't had time to put on a bra? Then she ran away out of embarrassment? Is that right?"

He was sulky "mostly, yeah." He groaned again "I don't know ok, and now everytime I will see her wearing the damn thing, it's going to be sooo uncomfortable. She's not even trying to be seductive or anything, She truly hates the 'damn things' her words not mine. She is... well... not exactly flat chested and apparently they are quite uncomfortable for her."

Key laughed "I think I like this woman, here we all thought that she was shy and embarrassed, but the entire time, she just hates wearing a bra. She is hilarious. Was there anything else?"

He thought about it "Oh yeah" he explained about what she said about not being attracted to him and why.

Key made a sound like he was thinking "Hmmmn, she must be demi then." "Demi?" "It is a type of A-sexuality that means that she only feels physical attraction for people that she knows on a personal level. You need to watch yourself Taemin, if you get involved with her, it won't be casual fling. There will be real feelings on both sides and that will be hard on you both when you have to come back home." he paused "I was teasing you about being in love, but I am serious now. You are attracted to her and if you handle this poorly, you could hurt her badly and yourself too. We can't be involved with anyone and you know it."

He did and Key was right, he would just have to stick to his fantasies.

Minho tried to lighten the mood "Well, at least now you must not hate her cardigan so much? Right?" he laughed teasingly

Taemin groaned again "No I hate the damn thing even more now. All I can think about is seeing her without it."

Minho cackled "Wow. Looks like Taeminnie is all grown up now, You are a real man now huh?" "Oh, shut it hyung. You know that I haven't been an innocent virgin for a long time now."

The rest of the call was filled with their teasing but it had given Taemin some things to think about now that he knew that he was attracted to her, because Key was right, nothing could come of it.

That Friday, she messaged him I am sorry to bother you, but I need a favor from you, but only as my neighbor Taemin. I want to go spend a few days with my dad and I was wondering, could you watch my cat? He hates it when I am away and I don't want to worry about him. I can pay you if you want?

He smiled and messaged back, glad that she saw him as her neighbor first. Sure, bring him over anytime, but since I don't need the money, could you cook me a meal instead? I haven't eaten anything homecooked since I came here as I can't really cook.

Sure, that is fine as long as you are aware I can't cook any korean recipes. Do you have any dietary restrictions? I figured I could make a simple rice bowl with what I have in my fridge.

Score, that sounded delicious and it was sweet of her to ask what he couldn't eat. I have a naturally high metabolism so I actually eat pretty normally, that sounds delicious. How about after you get back, you could come over and hang out. Is Tuesday ok?

Perfect, I'll be over in a bit with my cat. Is that ok? He sent a smiley face. see you then She came over about half an hour later with a very pissed off cat in a carrier. He was not meowing, so much as screaming. He let her inside and she let him out. Once again she changed her appearance. Her hair was in a thicker gold clip,and she wore large red flowers dangling from her ears, and simple makeup with a nude lipstick. She was very good at doing makeup and he kind of wanted her to do his sometime. She had a good grasp of color and he thought that he would like to see how she used it on his face. He was no stranger to eyeshadow and liked how it could make him look completely different.

She was also wearing the jeans again with a simple black t-shirt that looked effortless on her.

"I can't thank you enough for doing this. I need to get going, but message me if he gives you any trouble. It's only a couple of hours away I can come back early if needed."

He laughed "Oh, I'm sure it will be fine, What's his name?"

"I mostly just call him baby boy, as it fits his personality. He is basically my child and is quite clingy. When he adopted me, he was called Demon, but he's too sweet so I never call him that."

Baby boy peeked out of the carrier and finally came out. He reminded him of his owner and walked with a sort or elegance, he was also a pure black with light green eyes.

He got on the floor and held out his hand waiting for him to some over and sniff it. When the cat came over he gushed in korean "Well aren't you a handsome one. Just like your owner aren't you? So gorgeous."

By this time the cat had pushed his head into his hand and was purring loudly. "He likes me." He bragged "He does." She laughed

"Ok I need to hit the road before it gets dark. I will see you in a few days, Thanks again"

He looked down at the cat in his lap, purring loudly

"You are a baby aren't you?" He scratched the cat behind the ears.

Her cat was clingy alright, but he loved it. He was on his bed watching a documentary absent mindedly while the cat was seemingly asleep on his feet. Koong and Daeng at either side. Both happy in their preferred spots. He looked at the time and vid called his hyungs.

"I have a guest."

Key was already teasing him. "Is it your gorgeous hermit?" He laughed, no longer bothered by the teasing, no I am watching her cat while she visits family for the weekend."Meet Baby Boy"

He panned over and the cat looked at the screen perturbed at having his nap interrupted.

"Oh, aren't you a gorgeous man." key gushed

The cat deemed this an acceptable response and went back to his nap on Taemin's feet.

"He is so elegant, how long will he stay?"

"Just for the weekend. She wanted to pay me, but I asked to just cook me something instead. She told me that she likes cooking and you know how bad I am at it. There is also only so much take-out I can tolerate. Honestly I think I have the better end of the bargain. Her cat is quite sweet and I am enjoying his company and I get a meal of it."

His hyungs laughed. "Honestly Taem, I am glad that your neighbor can cook, you can barely chop potatoes." Minho shook his head "Honestly, I am not a great cook, but I look like Gordon Ramsey compared to you. The idea of you unsupervised in a kitchen is terrifying." He shuddered

Key asked "So what is she making? Did she tell you?"

He explained excitedly "she says that she doesn't know any korean recipes but she was so nice, she asked me if there was anything that I couldn't eat. I said no and she offered to make somekind of rice bowl. honestly I am just so happy to have rice here, that I don't even care what she makes, My mom sent me with some gochujang and kimchi so I am good with just that."

Key sighed "Taemin, you can't even make rice?"

"No I can make rice, but I haven't been shopping yet"

"Maybe you can ask her to take you to the store so you can stock up and she can explain what things are there." Minho suggested

It was a good idea and he needed to buy some more cat food anyways. They talked some more and then he fell asleep surrounded by cats.

He woke up and took a quick picture of her cat still asleep and curled up on his feet. He sent it to her having fun? How's your dad?

He got a reply almost instantly Awww, I love when he does that. I am glad that he likes you. Is he being good? and my Dad is great, he has a new beer for me to try and has me marathoning the John Wick movies. I love it here. It is so peaceful. I have gotten some writing done as well.

She sounded happy. It made him glad for her, he was worried about her initially, but she seemed to really take good care of herself

*He is a perfect gentleman, but I think he misses his mom. Koongie and Deangie say they want to see you again as well, but I am glad that you are having a good time. Family is always important."

"I know, tell everyone I miss them and I will see them soon. Thanks again"

He talked with his hyungs every night and even called his mother as well. She was glad that her kimchi had made the trip and was happy that he made friends with his neighbor and fellow cat lover. She missed him but would see him when he got back.

Sasha was back by Sunday evening and arrived to pick up her cat in a strapless long dress, but this time without the cardigan. Her cat greeted her noisily seeming to berate her for leaving without him.

"I know, sweetie, I missed you too, but you made new friends right?" She sat down and he was on his hind legs rubbing his head against her face while she peppered him with kisses.

It was so cute and he kissed his cats like that as well. Speaking of his two babies made their way over, wanting her attention as well.

"Oh hello, it is very nice to see you both again." She pet them both and scratched behind their ears obligingly, until her cat ducked under and made it clear that she was his human and he wasn't sharing.

She held him and said "Now, baby boy, you have me all to yourself at home, you need to learn to share ok." She picked him up and put him in his carrier.

Now she turned back to him a bit sheepish. "actually could you help me up? After my surgery, it is hard for me to get off floor when I am sitting like this."

She held up her hands and without thinking he pulled her up a bit too strongly. It was like something out of a bad K-drama but she literally fell into his arms. She was almost his exact height and she fit into them perfectly. He looked into her eyes, mesmerized by their depths as he still held her. She pulled away almost violently.

"Oh I am so sorry, You are much stronger than you look and I am still not the best on my feet yet. That was like some thing out of a bad k-drama." She laughed hard.

"I didn't think that could actually happen in real life you know. The only thing worse would be if we kissed accidentally."

She was still laughing. He laughed with her, but he was still reeling, he enjoyed holding her way too much. She was so soft and feminine, a perfect contrast to his body, which despite it famously pretty face, was all lean muscle and hard. God, she even smelled perfect, like soft flowers. He couldn't help but to think that if he ever kissed her, it would be very much on purpose.

At that moment her cat, protested again, quite loudly. Now he laughed genuinely.

She looked at him "I think that is my sign, thanks again, I will come over with dinner after work on Tuesday. Is 6 ok.?"

He nodded, needed her to leave, so that once again he could take care of himself. He hoped it wasn't obvious. Thankfully she left and Once again he found himself in his bed, his pants around his ankles, with his hand tugging at his violent errection. He didn't even need porn anymore all he did was imagine her in that loose sundress, wearing that damned cardigan. Each time he did this he got further. He imagined peeling the thing off of her and bringing his hands up to her breasts, feeling them bare through the light fabric. He would find her nipples and thumb them through her dress. Now he imagined looking in her eyes as he slowly loweredhis mouth to hers tasting her first moans as he kissed her slowly and thoroughly. He came harder than ever with a violent curse.

This was bad each time he saw her he wanted her more The worst thing was it wasn't even just a physical attraction. She was genuine, kind warm and funny. They had been texting more and he was discovering that she had a very dark and dry sense of humor. The more time they spent together, the more he was convinced that she just fit with him. He found it ironic that the woman that he wanted more than anything would be the one that wasn't attracted to him at all.

He called Minho wanting advice, and told him about how she felt in his arms. "I didn't want to let her go hyung. She fit perfectly there and I wanted to just keep her there. I finally got to look her in her eyes and it is a public service that she never looks at people directly. They are a deep amber and I just stared at them. Hyung even my cats like her. I know that I can't do anything, but it is getting harder. Its not pure lust either, she is funny, sweet, and so warm. I swear when she smiles, the room feels warmer to me. She also doesn't seem to care that I am Taemin the idol. She likes me as an artist, but seems to just enjoy talking to me as her neighbor. Hyung she makes feel normal and not like a celebrity for once. I missed that."

Minho was quiet "Taem, are you in love with her?"

"No, I don't know her well enough yet, but I like her alot and am very attracted to her"

"Then as your band member I say that this is bad idea, but as your hyung I think that you should go for it. You really like her and if you just ignore this, I think that you would regret it. You deserve to be happy, and while we are idols and it is against our contract, but we are people first and deserve to have emotional connections with people. She may even be the one for you. You shouldn't miss out on that."

He felt a sense of relief at having his hyung understand "Thanks for understanding. "

Minho laughed "Just promise me that you won't get married and leave the group. We need you ok?"

"I would never do that and I have a feeling, that even if it ever got serious, she wouldn't ask that of me."

Minho whistled "No wonder you like her so much, if you guys ever get serious, I would like to meet her I think.

Taemin was quiet "I wish Jonghyun could have met her, She reminds me a bit of him at times. She is so kind and beautiful and loves to laugh like he did. She is not a singer, but she has a soothing voice and likes to help people. I can sometimes hear on the phone her with her family in the evenings, just listening to them like Jjong used to do with us."

Minho sighed "We all miss him, Taem, we always will, but maybe he sent her to you so you would have someone. Not as a replacement but just to have a person like that in your life. I think he already likes her."

"Thanks, that makes me feel a bit better, its been years, but I still miss him alot. I was feeling conflicted about the whole thing, but i feel better now. I am just going to go with the flow with her, The whole thing may be a moot point as I don't even know if she is even attracted to me."

Minho laughed "Poor Taem, it figures that you would like the one person who isn't charmed by your pretty face alone."

Taemin groaned, annoyed "It's not funny, its not like I even care that much about it normally, I like my face and have fun with fashion and make up when I perform, but any other time it is just my face. It's not like i am a narcissist about it or anything."

Minho responded seriously, "I know, but maybe your best bet with her is to just let her get to know you as Lee Taemin her neighbor and sometimes cat sitter since she doesn't seem to care about Taemin the idol much. You said that she has only treating you as her neighbor, maybe that is just her way of respecting that you are there to live like a normal person for a while. You said that she was kind right?"

Minho was right, the more that he thought about it, the more that he wanted her to like him as her neighbor rather than an idol. This was actually the best thing to happen to him as now he could just work on trying to date her like a normal person.

He looked up "Thanks Hyung." He said quietly and he swore that he could feel arms hugging him like they used to. He fell asleep smiling.

That Tuesday he had a bottle of red wine and some craft beers delivered. She didn't know it, but this was absolutely a date. He called Key and after a quick consultation decided to wear some loose jeans and a nice tighter fitting t-shirt. The outfit highlighted his dancers build without looking too formal. He ran some gel through his hair to give it some shape and put on just a little cologne. He decided to have them eat on the couch, so that it wouldn't feel like a date and she wouldn't feel pressured.

He quickly applied some lip balm. and he was ready.

She arrived on time, wearing her usual sundress, but this time she wasn't wearing that cardigan, and she looked enchanting. Her hair was pinned up with a single hairstick and he smirked to himself, glad that he wasn't the only one to make an effort. She carried a plastic container with the still steaming dish and rushed to his kitchen. "do you have bowls and utensils ready? Its going to get cold."

He walked over and grabbed a couple of bowls while she took out a small bowl with a thick brown sauce. His apartment now smelled of cooked sausage and vegetables. She scooped some rice in a bowl, topped it with the pink sausage and vegetables then added sliced avocado and drizzled the sauce over it. It looked and smelled delicious. He walked over to his fridge and asked "do you want wine or beer with dinner?"

She looked thoughtful "Beer with this I think, we can have wine if you ever want to eat my pasta." She laughed

She walked over with the bowl and gave it to him he grabbed a large spoon, intending on inhaling it.

"it's not from a recipe or anything, it is just something that I throw together that is pretty healthy and tastes good. I hope you like it."

He placed his bowl on his coffee table and grabbed the tupperware with the kimchi and gochujjang from the fridge adding them to the table.

He gestured at them and said a bit awkwardly "I hope you don't mind, it just ... I am Korean" he ended a bit lamely

She laughed "No of course not, they look delicious, I have always wanted to try homemade kimchi, I can only buy it from the grocery store." He was relived "No of course not, my mother would be happy to know that my American friend here likes her kimchi."

"Oh that is so nice that your mother made that for you. how sweet."

He gave her her spoon and they sat down. He took some of the gochujang and added it to his rice, mixing liberally than he topped it with the kimchi and took a bite. It was so delicious that he could cry. the sausage was smoky and flavorful and the vegetables were perfectly cooked. "What is that sauce you brought? Can I buy some from the store?"

She pinked a little "Oh no it is just soy sauce reduced with some brown sugar and a little maple syrup."

"could I have the recipe? I may need to bully Key hyung into making this for me when I get back."

She shook her head "oh sorry I never use a recipe. I just kind of eyeball it you know?"

He was now in love, she cooked like his mother did. She never could explain either.

He got up and got her little container with her sauce and added more. She reached over and struggled to pick up the kimchi with her spoon. Without thinking he grabbed it and tore off a piece by hand and placed it in her bowl.

She looked at him suspiciously "I washed my hands, I swear. Tearing it by hand is the best way to eat kimchi anyways."

She scooped it up and ate it with a bite of her rice. "Oh my god, that is delicious." She looked over at him "I washed my hands ok?" and tore off another piece of kimchi into her bowl. She took a bite of her rice again, this time moaning. He loaded up his spoon with his now red rice, "here try mine"he held it to her mouth as she took a bite.

"Oh wow that is quite spicy, it is quite good though."

She held out her bowl for him, "could you do that to mine too, but maybe a bit less chili?" She had a decent tolerance for spicy food. He added about half the amount that he added to his and stirred it he looked over and saw her holding her beer looking for some thing, "Oh I have a bottle opener" He got up to go get it.

"Oh no problem," She grabbed her spoon and in one move used it to open the bottle before doing the same to his.

His jaw dropped. That was so cool. "What?" she asked when he kept staring. "That was awesome. How did you learn that?" She shrugged, a bit uncomfortable with his attention. "It's just basic physics. Nothing that impressive."

He sometimes forgot how smart she was.

She put some kimchi on her bowl and took a bite of her doctored rice and moaned again "OOOH, that is perfect. Thanks"

They finished their dinner and talked about everything, their birthdays, he was surprised to learn that she was actually 5 years older than him, he asked her work and talked about his interest in choreography and song writing. It was nice how she treated his idol life as if it was just another job.

When they finished he got up to do the dishes and she helped. "If you want, I can leave the sauce with you, It is easy to make. If you want I have a few extra things I can give you. I noticed that you don't have any food other than that kimchi. its not much but it should hold you over till you get to the store. I figured a bit of rice, a few eggs and some green onion should help tide you over a bit. Oh an I have a few packs of ramen if you want."

Ok now he really was in love. It was exactly what he wanted. "Oh please! anything helps and actually would you mind going with me to the food store this weekend? Minho is worried I might not know what most of the stuff is, since I can't really cook."

"Oh sure, I needed to stock up a bit myself so you can ride along if you want. Is Saturday afternoon ok?"

Score, the night wasn't even over and he already had another date planned. He kept his face blank. "Yes, that sounds great."

They finished up the dishes. And as she was packing up her stuff he grabbed her wrist. "Wait I wanted to watch that show you mentioned, The Witcher? Can you stay for a bit longer and watch it with me?"

She looked down as if surprised by the skin contact. Odd, he thought most americans were casual about touching.

"Ok I guess I can stay for a few episodes."

She walked over and sat on the couch and queued up the first episode and pressed play explaining the different timelines. The show was quite interesting and he really liked it. While he was contemplating an excuse to move closer Daeng climbed up and curled up in his favorite spot on the couch. She was the one who scooted closer to pet him and now she was close enough that he could hold her if he wanted and she let him. Their hands bumped as they pet his cat who was soaking up the extra attention.

"I'm sorry that I panicked the first time I was here, I should have known I was safe with you, you would never hurt me and I am glad that we are friends."

"You are safe here with me, but what made you think that?"

"Well for one you are not some rapist, and for another look at us. I am not ugly or anything, but I am 5 years older than you and overweight, and well you are literally one of the most talented and beautiful people alive today. It is a joke that I was worried that you would ever take advantage of me."

Now he was angry "It is not a joke actually, I would never take advantage of you, but you should know that I have every intention of seducing you. So you should be ready."

She looked at him, incredulous. "You cannot be serious. I know what I look like and I am like five years older than you. You can't be interested in me?"

"Oh I can and I am, I assure you. For goodness sakes, you are only a year older than Onew. Its not like you are ancient. And I am and idol remember, age gaps are normal in the entertainment industry, and most are usually larger than ours." He laughed a bit mischievously, "remember my debut song was about having crush on an older woman " He leaned close and sang a few lines of replay into her ear.

He finished and whispered "and I don't think you know what you look like at all. You may not be skinny, but your body has haunted my dreams for a while now. Let me show you."

She faced him, looking into his eyes, "H-how do you intend on showing me that?" She asked breathlessly

He took that as a green light. He leaned down "like this." he whispered against her lips "Wha-" she didn't get a chance to finish the question before he crushed his mouth against hers. She had her mouth open and he took full advantage licking into it and tangling with her tongue. He sucked at her full lower lip before slowly pulling back.

They were both breathing hard. She looked at him, not moving away. He leaned back in slower this time, giving her time to stop him. She didn't. He kissed her again, she had her mouth closed so this time he kissed her slowly, flicking the tip of his tongue against her closed lips. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her closer, finally holding her at last. It was with triumph that he felt her arms wind around her neck pulling him down to her as her lips finally parted on a moan. He surged in again and this time she met him stroke for stroke making him moan this time. it wasnt close enough, he pulled her even closer and without even pausing their searing kiss she straddled him. Her loose dress rode up her thighs and he could feel her against his hardness, only the fabric of her underwear and his jeans separating them. He pushed up, grinding into her core. She pulled back with a soft "Oh" and he reached up, removing her glasses and then pulling the single hair pin holding it up.

Finally he saw her in her true glory and it was even better than his imagination. Her amber eyed peered down at him with her glorious waves freed from their confines. It was down to her waist and she looked like a goddess sitting there. Deliberately he slowly pushed up, grinding against her, never breaking their eye contact. She threw her head back and moaned rubbing herself into him. He took his hands and moved them up, cupping her full breasts in her bra. He needed to touch them. Now. Her bra really fit quite tightly and he reached into the top of her dress, pulling her breasts up and tugging her dress down finally seeing them bare. Still pushing up against her he bent down and took one of her exposed nipples into his mouth and licking around it, before sucking deeply. She bucked against him "Oh fuck" she moaned. Oh fuck indeed. He thought. In one move he pulled off his t-shirt and pulled her down, kissing her deeply as her breasts crushed against his bare chest. He pulled back slightly, before murmuring against her lips, "Come to my bed?" She just nodded before kissing him again. He grabbed her ass pulling her against him roughly, still kissing her as he got up from the couch and carried her to his bedroom as her legs wrapped around his torso.

"How can you do that? I am not exactly light."

He smirked, beyond smug as he pulled her in and said against her lips, "you already said it, yourself. I am much stronger than I look." He kissed her deeply as he laid her on the bed before removing his pants and covering her body with his now only the thin fabric of her underwear and his separating them. He pulled her up pulled her dress over her head before then removing her bra. Finally she was free and bared to him. His fantasies hadn't done her justice, she was like and ancient goddess, sitting there practically nude on his bed. He pushed her into the mattress, covering her body with his with a groan of his own.

Suddenly his phone rang. There was no way that he was stopping this for a damned phone call, no way. He bent down and started suckling at her breast again, Licking in between the sucking. He was moving to her neck as his phone rang again. He ignored it again, licking at her ear and feeling her through her panties. She was so wet, that her panties were actually damp and he was just rubbing his finger against her clit through her underwear and he licked into her ear making her moan louder when his phone rang again, he groaned. "maybe you should answer that" She panted through gasps. He had a wicked idea. He sat up and pulled her into his lap facing him, he pushed aside her flimsy underwear and sunk a finger into her wetness and curled up, making her scream. He kissed her harshly as he moved his finger in and out always curling against the spot inside. "SHH" he said as he reached for his phone "Taemin don't you fucking dare" He crooked his finger again as he answered it "Hyungs, it is really not a good time." He panted.

He quietly licked her ear again, making her writhe against his finger, still inside her.

Key was not happy "Taemin, why did you ignore our call? and why do you sound out of breath are you at the gym or something"

He pumped his finger inside her again. "its the or something hyung. I'll call you guys later ok? I reeeally can't talk right now. Ok?"

Minho figured it out "Oh my god Taemin, Sorry. Call us later"

Key still didn't get it. "Wait I still don't understand. Why can't he talk." Minho sighed "I'll tell you later ok?" "No not ok Minho-" He hung up. Sasha moaned loudly. He crooked his finger against her again. "you are a fucking asshole, Lee Taemin, do you know that"

He started pumping inside her faster. He nodded "Oh I am an asshole alright and I will be fucking you, so yes I am aware." He said cockily.

She actually growled as she got off his lap and removed her underwear before straddling him and pressing him back into his mattress, fully nude now. She leaned down and grabbed him firmly through his underwear and whispered into his ear. "You miscalculated. I am not some young thing barely more than a virgin. I am a grown ass woman, and your stunt earlier comes with consequences. It's my turn now."

"Oh fuck yes" he was more than willing. "good" she purred "pinch my thigh if you want to stop." Was she?... Then she moved up his body before lowering her self on his mouth. Oh absofuckinglutely he was into this, this was supposed to be a punishment? How could he piss her off more.

She rocked against him as he found her clit and started licking and sucking lightly. She rocked against him taking what she wanted. He held her by her soft thighs as he pulled her tighter against him and licked as deeply as he could inside her wet opening and she shuddered. This was the hottest thing to ever happen to him and they would be doing this again. He licked up her folds and focused on her clit again, licking and sucking lightly at the bundle of nerves there, before holding her thighs again and shoving his tongue in to her as deeply as it could go and licking inside of her as she rode against him encouraging the tongue fucking as he kept licking the top of her inner walls.

"Ohh, almost there. Yes. Oh God Don't stop. Dont stop. No wait I'm-" She moved to get up. She wasn't going anywhere. "You don't understand I-" He pulled her down shoving his tongue roughly inside her and she exploded against him bucking wildly and completely drenching him as she came "Oh god, Oh fuck yes. YES!" She finished her orgasm and fell against his headboard still limp. He wiggled out from underneath her and turned her around as liquid dripped down his chest. He leaned down and kissed her deeply, making her taste herself on him. "Was that what I thought it was?"

She nodded "that is why I tried to get off before, I finished." "How often does that happen?" "pretty frequently, I am afraid"

He laughed "I am sorry, but your punishment backfired. That was so fucking hot, I will be demanding a repeat performance later, as frequently as possible." That was the hottest shit to ever happen to him.

She laughed as he kissed her "Oh, believe me it was my pleasure."

He groaned, it was her pleasure and he was already addicted to it. He was greedy and wanted more. He laid her down again, kissing her slowly, just enjoying the taste of her after making her cum so hard. She was beginning to moan softly and he moved to her ear, remembering from earlier how sensitive she was there. He started licking the shell of the tip of her ear flicking the tip of his tongue in there slightly. She moaned again, trying to arch into him. He moved down into her neck and started kissing her softly there, licking her in between kisses. He moved back up and kissed her much more urgently this time as he rocked against her, now painfully erect in his underwear. She started to arch into each of his thrusts and he knew that she was ready, He latched on to her to her other breast and sucked again, while pushing two fingers into her and angling his hand so that his thumb brushed her clit each time he pulled back and pushed into her again. Once again he felt her shudder and spasm, this time he felt her walls flutter around his fingers as she came again. She pulled him back up and kissed him, hard. "Lee Taemin, you started this, and if I dont feel you inside me in the next two seconds, I swear I will kill you myself."

He chuckled, loving her intensity. "Yes, noona" He quite liked this threat of hers so he reached into his nightstand and pulled out a small pack of condoms. He wasted no time ripping it open and sliding it onto himself. Now ready he caged her with his body and looked down at her as he slowly slid in.

Fuck she felt amazing around him and he bent down and kissed her gently as he slid in and out slowly, getting ever closer to that spot inside her that he found with his fingers earlier as she moaned and arched against him. Finally she bucked against him, as he found it again. He sped up, pounding into her, always brushing against the single spot until she exploded again with a cry, he never stopped his rhythm using is legendary muscle control he kept rocking into her until as she came until he fucked her into another climax. She was almost screaming now. After her 4th orgasm (yes he was counting) she sat up as he pulled her into his lap again, still inside her. She wrapped her legs around him as he pulled her against him and pushed up as he kissed her. The position was beyond intimate as he felt every single curve and line of her pushed against him and he loved it.

He pulled back wanting to look at her as they both finished. His thrusts sped up, no longer controlled as he felt the edge of his own orgasm. Now she was the one who held him as he pounded up to her and he started to come with one last thrust. He felt his body almost lock as he spilled into the condom, feeling her convulse as well. "Oh, yes. Oh Fuck." The orgasm was one of the best he ever had and as he was coming down from it, she whispered into his ear. "Oh fuck indeed. Lee Taemin". He laughed as he pulled out and laid down and still panting pulled her into his arms. She fit there perfectly as she laid against his shoulder snuggling him. She was perfect for him. That was his last thought as they both feel asleep exhausted.

He was abruptly awoken the next morning by a loud sound from the living room. "Oh shit" Sasha cursed as she got dressed, "damnit" He heard as she found her panties from last night now stiff after they had dried. He smirked, still proud of himself for getting her so wet last night. "Noona, come back to bed" she walked over and kissed him sweetly, her hair now in its clip.

"I can't I need to go to work in 30 min" "But you work from home don't you." she nodded laughing "yes, but I need to log on by a certain time", "you literally live next door, just work from my place."

He looked up at her "please I don't want you to leave yet, you can use my wifi and I have an office set up in my spare room that you can use. Please noona?'

"but I can't leave my cat alone that long, he was alone all night because I slept over."

"Then bring him here, I can take care of him while you work. He likes me anyways." He grinned

"Oh fine then, I will get him and bring him over. I would prefer to work from your sofa if you don't mind though, but no funny business, I am serious when I work and I like my job."

"yes!" he danced like and idiot with his victory. "You're cute." She walked over and kissed him again. "I'll be right back"

She left to get her cat and he put some pants on and tidied the living room a bit, and brought her a blanket and a bottle of water, figuring she might like both. He fed his son and daughter, both quite miffed at him for locking them out all night. He plied them with some treats, pleading with them for forgiveness "I'm sorry babies, but we needed to be alone, I will let you sleep with me tonight I promise." With the treats , he was apparently forgiven.

She opened the door, her own cat in tow, changed into a new simple dress, wearing her cardigan. With a bag over her shoulder. She closed the door and put her cat down, who came right over again, greeting him. He bent over and scratched his head as he purred "hello again, sir, I'm sorry I stole your mother last night, but we'll share her today I promise.

She took out her laptop and cord as she plugged it in and booted the computer, he gave her his phone with the wifi info "here, that should give you access"

She smiled at him, no longer awkward after last night. "Thanks." She got out a set of headphones and put them on. Once she logged on, she looked as saw the blanket and water he got out for her She looked at him "Is that for me?" He nodded a bit embarrassed, She got up and kissed him on the cheek. "Thanks, babe" She went back to his couch, spread the blanket on her lap and put two of his throw pillows behind her back before starting to type randomly. He smiled, loving to see her be natural in his space as he still held his cheek. The fact that he enjoyed her simple kiss on the cheek after, the frankly, mind-blowing sex last night, was not a great sign as he would have to leave at some point. He needed to call Minho.

He left her to her work and went to his bedroom and closed the door. He should be safe as she was already taking calls and helping people navigate their software and couldn't hear him. Minho answered on the first ring "Tae? You ok?" "Yah! what the hell was that last night? You better tell me! You never miss a call with us."

He groaned "You didn't tell him?"

"I didn't know how, and it really isn't my place"

He nodded dreading this "I was with Sasha last night hyung. It really was a bad time."

"You couldn't have just talked to us and told is that? All you said was it wasn't a good time. what does that even mean?"

This was giving him a headache, but he knew that his blunt hyung would not let this go. "It means that she was in my bed, ok? You called as we were literally about to have sex" Key screamed "What?! Lee Taemin what happened to not getting attached?" "I didn't exactly plan it you know? All I was plan on was trying to kiss her a bit, but she smiled at me and called me a friend and basically apologized for being awkward at the beginning because she should have known that I would never try to take advantage of her, because she is years older than me and not skinny so I couldn't possibly be attracted to her."

Minho whistled "Damn, I can see how that would set you off. Doesn't she know that age gaps are stupidly common in entertainment? I mean she is only a year older than Onew. It's not that big a deal. and actually, don't you like people older than you anyways?" "Right? That is what I told her. and Key I was already getting attached without sex or romance. I decided to just stop fighting and enjoy being with her, what ever that entailed. Even before the sex, which was amazing by the way, we were having a great time. She made this amazing rice bowl and even liked my mother's kimchi I brought. She even made it so that it was healthy and not too high in calories in case I was on a diet. I even got her to like gochujjang."

They both started laughing "Well, at least you found someone to feed you. I was worried about that and it seems that she is very considerate, I may need her recipe as that actually sounds pretty good."

"Oh she never uses recipes," he bragged "she says that she just eyeballs everything"

Now key was impressed. "Damn, that is like country ajumma level cooking. Well can you at least talk to the woman about something other than food?"

"Oh yeah, we talked about her job and what she does, She's so smart hyungs, and then she asked me about song writing and choreography. It was nice, it felt like she was just talking to me about my job like a regular person and that my job just happens to be as an idol and artist."

Minho was laughing "Well that is nice at least, anything else?"

"Well I think that she was worried about my fridge being empty as she offered to bring over some extra eggs, rice and green onions until we go grocery shopping, which she agreed to before the amazing sex we had later."

Key was still chuckling "Yes, you mentioned that a few times already. I have to say I like her, honestly if she lived in korea, I might have tried to talk you into marrying her. It's a shame that it can't last."

Taemin tried not to think about it. "I know" he sighed "She already knows that I only have six months here before I have to go back, so she knows that I can't stay."

Minho got quiet. "Who knows, if she is the right one, maybe you two will find a way. Where is she now? Still sleeping?"

"No I talked her over into bringing over her cat and working from my place. She is up and taking calls from my living room. I like having her close. Hyungs I have it bad, she kissed my cheek thanking me for getting her out a blanket and a bottle of water for her and I couldn't stop smiling this morning. After last night, a cheek kiss should mean nothing but it made me so happy. She didn't even mean anything by it, it was quick and absent minded as she setup the coffee table. I am just happy that she seems comfortable with me you know? She seemed so hesitant when I first met her that it is nice that she dropped her guard"

"Yah!" Key screamed at him, "you didn't even get her breakfast? She cooked dinner for you, is offering to take you shopping and apparently had amazing sex with you and you can't even bother to feed the woman? Lee Taemin I taught you better than that."

"I don't have any food here, so I was going to order breakfast a bit later. I am not an immature teenager anymore hyung. I can take care of my person now even if I can't cook."

Minho answered "You love her." It wasn't a question. "No that is way too fast, but, I am falling for her, hard." Minho ignored that "You will love her then, it is only a matter of time, if you feel giddy after getting a kiss on the cheek the morning after apparently great sex. You like just being around her, the sex is just a nice bonus for you, isn't it?"

"It was way more than nice, but yeah I just like her."

"That is it then, for now, just enjoy being with her, and deal with the future as it comes."

Key sounded emotional "I am worried as your fellow member, I want you to be happy, but I don't want you to quit. We need you."

"Don't worry hyung I would never leave you guys, You are my family and friends and I need you too."

"Good, then as your Hyung I am happy for you. I want to meet her someday." "I would like that too hyung. Thanks" They disconnected and hung up. One thing was, sure they needed to talk tonight, before things got more serious.

He walked out a bit later and picked up the breakfast burritos that he ordered. He had eaten those in LA and liked them well enough.

Sasha seemed to be in between calls for a bit so he brought her the burrito and another bottle of water. "Do you have a few min for breakfast?"

She looked up and grinned at him."yeah I am not live right now, so I would love to eat with you."

He sat next to her.

"So last night was amazing, obviously, but I thought that you weren't attracted to me."

She finished her bite and swallowed "This is so good. Thanks. I am not attracted to Taemin the idol and member of Shinee, though I admire him greatly. Lee Taemin my cute next door neighbor, yeah him, I am attracted to."

He was happy, but confused "But I thought that you were only interested in people who you know personally?"

She nodded like he was dumb, "yeah and you watched my cat for me so I could go see my dad and texted me constantly since you got my number. You ask about my life and interests and tell me about your passions. You like my food and let me eat your mom's cooking. I'd say that was pretty personal, wouldn't you?"

He was happy, "So you like me? You think I am cute?"

"Of course, I think you're cute. You are literally thought of as one of the most beautiful people on the planet, and if you can't tell that I like you after last night I think that you might be hopeless."

He laughed loudly and pulled her into his arms hugging her. "You are amazing you know that Noona? You talk a bit like Key you know."

She hugged him, back "It is only because I am bit on the blunt side, Also why do you keep calling me Noona? I don't mind it, but doesn't it have a different connotation than oppa?" "That is only because of misogyny, They literally mean the same thing, it is just that a woman being older is supposed to mean that she is less attractive. I call you that one, because technically you are my noona, but mostly it is because I want you to know that I like you as you are. I am not self conscious because you are older than me. I am secure enough in my masculinity that I don't need to prove myself, or have you try to act younger than you are. I don't wish you were younger or I was older, I am glad that we met right now and the woman I like and am attracted to is you in this exact moment."

Her eyes were glistening "Damn, you are not fair you know?" She wrapped her arms around him and drew him into a hot kiss.

"You can't say things like that when I am working. I swear it is like you just stepped out of my fantasies and already know what I need to hear."

She pulled back "sorry, I just... you are the sweetest man you know that? I need to finish my breakfast and get back to work and you are the worst distraction."

He kissed her this time and placed her hand on his bulge, already hardening with her contact. "I like to think I am the best distraction actually. He kissed her neck licking it slowly and pulled back kissing her cheek before getting up.

"Oh, fuck you Lee Taemin", she cursed.

He looked back at her "That is exactly what I am hoping for."

He heard her curse him out creatively as he went into his room and closed the door.

He got a lot of reading and writing done while she worked, the writing was especially good as that was where he got new song and music ideas as well, but he was inspired. Sasha was impressive he deliberately left the door open as, he had grown used to hearing her soft voice and he loved that now he could understand the conversations. She was amazing, he understood basically none of what she said, and t was not due to his English. But, she was so kind with each person, she always made sure to understand reassure them telling them things like "Don't worry I would have struggled with that too." He thought that she might be lying there, just out of kindness, because from what he over heard she was brilliant. She was able to fix most anything it seemed, and was always humble about it. He thought that anyone who got her, was lucky as she was funny and tried to make them laugh during her calls. He wondered how many people called her feeling frustrated, overwhelmed and embarrassed that ended up happy and relived after speaking with her. She laughed alot her self seeming to enjoy her job. She was also quite stubborn and would pick at a complicated problem until he heard a loud "A-ha!" come from his living room.

Finally she closed her laptop with a soft singsong "I'm free" It was only 4 so they had the whole evening. Good. He need to talk to her about last night and what it meant for them. He did not want to lead her on and wanted to be sure that she understood.

He sat down next to her on the couch as she told him about her day and her clients and even ranted about the ones who frustrated her. It was clear that while she was quite kind and considerate, she did not tolerate bullshit well, as she creatively cursed out a particularly sexist old man who thought that just because she was a woman in IT meant that she inherently knew less than him. He was angry on her behalf, worried about clients taking advantage of her or her company polices meaning that she was stuck dealing with these jerks, but she explained that she only had to deal with the annoying ones. Apparently, her company protects them well, and actually bans people for being cruel, vicious or demeaning. Good. That made him feel better.

He told her about his reading and writing and they talked companionably for the next hour.

"Listen, I want to talk to you about last night, if you don't mind, I want to make sure that there are no misunderstandings about our future or potential future ok?"

He was dreading this all day but to his surprise she just nodded "yes, that is a very good idea, how about this? Let me start with what I expect and you can add on to what I missed ok?"

God, he really could love her. He nodded "I can work with that."

"Ok, I know that you are only here for six months, probably while Onew is healing. I know that what ever this is, is not going to result in a public proposal and a spring wedding. I figure that one of two things will happen. Either this will be hot and heavy and will burn itself out in time, or..."

He held her hand wanting her to continue "Or " She took a deep breath "or this leads to something more and at the end of this we try long distance and see how it works."

He was floored "You would be willing to do that? You know that no matter my feelings, I would have to hide our relationship and you would go months without seeing me when we are recording and promoting, right?"

She nodded nonplussed "I am aware of that yes, look my dad was in the military and I would sometimes go months without seeing him or hearing from him other than letters. Believe me, you will be easier than that. I don't really want the marriage with the pickett fence and 2.5 kids, I never did. I am happy as I am, and also you should know that I cant carry a child to term. If I ever got pregnant, I would have to abort the fetus for my own safety."

"What?" He never saw that coming, he never really wanted children of his own, but she would have made an amazing mother.

"My back is really messed up Taemin, If I put any strain on it, it can flare up again and I will once again spend my days in excruciating pain, barely able to stand or walk or function. I- I can't do that again, it almost killed me the first time."

His entire body grew cold. "W-what do you mean?"

She looked at him, with so much kindness in her eyes. "I have never been suicidal Taemin." She said softly

He let out the breath that he had been holding, so she continued softly. "I lost everything then. My life has never been easy, but I worked hard and built a life for myself, but when I lost my mobility, no one knew if I would ever get it back, I spent every moment in pain, then I lost my job in the middle of the pandemic, and had to start my career over in my 30's and then when I could no longer cook or clean, my mother kicked me out. I didn't want to be alive, I didn't plan or wish for my own death, but I hated living and had no hope for my future. I luckily had family out here to stay with, but I was technically homeless for like 8 months. I loved my aunt but we butted heads alot so once I found a stable job again and got far enough in my new career to support myself, I moved here."

He wrapped his arms around her, just wanting to hold her. "You are amazing you know that? You are so strong it humbles me and I am so proud of you." She smiled hugging him back "thanks"

She looked at him "I am ok Taemin, you don't need to worry about me. I won't lie and say things are easy, but